Starting the 90 Day Novel

As mentioned, I am part of a forum on writing.com that loosely follows the advice from a book, "The 90 Day Novel" by Alan Watt.  I'm about a week in and the forum is great, though I don't actually own the book.  The tasks assigned by the forum are similar to the book but I believe follow a different structure.  Since my novel is already 1/3 written, I use it to make sure i'm hitting the key points a good novel should.

The first thing we were asked to write is an answer to this question.  I'll admit, I felt like a student again (blah!), but here goes:

"I am afraid to write this novel because..."

There is the fear of not being published.  I think that every author has that fear.  My spouse is managing all of our household finances while I spend my days searching for work and writing; I don’t want to let us down.  After being let go from a job, I already come to the table with a good dose of humility.  I have spent many years writing in conversational style and worry that this will not translate well into written form.  There is a small part that worries about the critiquing of my work.  I believe that once a publisher picks you up, it’s proof you’re worth something but in the mean time, every reader seems to have opposing opinions.  It’s difficult to solicit and hear the feedback while still keeping true to one’s creative voice.

S.C. Rood